If I'm being honest, after having Sienna sans drugs, I wasn't so sure about her. I was utterly exhausted, my body felt ravaged, and for the first few weeks, I wasn't sure I was capable of being a mother to this little girl. Sienna felt like a stranger to me...a miniature stranger. I loved her, but I didn't feel close to her. She didn't feel like a part of me. Does that make me horrible? I hope not.
What a difference a year makes. That blue eyed girl is the highlight of my everyday. I miss her at night when she goes to bed. I rush to the church nursery after we have been separated for only an hour. I hate when Matt and I get home after going out and she has already gone to sleep. She is my delight. I can no longer imagine my world without her. She is the sweetest, funniest, friendliest and most beautiful person I know. I could not have dreamed up a more perfect baby for God to send me and I can't believe she is mine.
She took her first steps on August 22nd (just over 11 1/2 months old)!
When I say "Oh no!", she puts her hands on her head.
She holds a cell phone up to her ear.
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Matt got called up to the big leagues about a week and a half ago! (This news is equal parts exciting and absolutely nerve racking!) Sienna and I went to see him in Cleveland for 6 days, but now we are back in Florida and will mostly remain here until he gets home (which can't come soon enough). We miss him. All the time.
I have been busily working to get our house ready! Putting Sienna's furniture together, picking out wall decorations for her room, looking at tile for our master bathroom, unpacking, getting cable installed, cleaning, etc! It's been extremely busy, but unbelievably exciting! Every time I walk in to our house I think about how much I love it and how blessed I am.
It's hard to believe another baseball season has come and is almost gone. Sienna's birthday will always represent the end of the season which gives double reason to celebrate. : ) Sienna's presence this season has created such a perspective shift and injected joy and light in to even the hardest of days. What a gift she is.
I am so happy to have discovered this secret blog of yours, Mrs. LaPorta. It makes my internet stalking infinitely easier. I love that you can speak of your feelings after childbirth honestly. I wish more women could talk about the grit of those first few weeks without the pressure of feeling like a bad mom. Happy that you found your mama rhythm with that beautiful, bright-eyed girl.
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