Friday, August 1, 2014

July 2015

July was a sentimental month.  I often found myself staring at my children in awe and wonder, squeezing them tighter than normal, and furiously brainstorming about HOW I can freeze them in time.  Right here.  Right now.  I am so grateful that I feel like I have been able to STOP, and embrace so many little moments throughout the day, but it also makes me MISS THEM ALREADY.  

Maybe it's because I know we are entering in to another transition.  Sienna will be three years old next month. Three is just different.  You definitely are not a baby anymore.  You are on the precipice of going to real school.  It's just different.  It's older.  And there's no way around it.  

Price and Maddox are about to walk and they will be one year old in a few months.  Again...another HUGE transition in childhood.  They are so smushy and cuddly and innocent and IN LOVE with me right now.  With walking comes more independence, and with independence comes more resistance and exerting of wills.  

I'm not ready.  I want to bottle them up.  I want to NOT FORGET.  There are certain things I remember about Sienna when she was the boys' age (9 months).  But why don't I remember more?  How could I have forgotten?  It pains me and puts me in to a panic that I won't recall what they were like right here and now.  What do I do?  How DO you remember?  

Outside of being sentimental, July was an incredible month.  We started July off at one of my favorite (also sentimental) places in the world...Camp Kulaqua in High Springs, FL.  Matt made the very brave and humble decision to serve as a camp counselor for twenty-two 8th graders.  Yes...twenty-two 8th graders.  My mom, dad, Sienna, the boys, and I all went up for just one night to see him and visit the place where my memories start at around 3 or 4 years of age all the way up through college.  I love Camp Kulaqua.  I cherish the hilarious, sweet, peaceful, and exciting moments I have had there.

July is also home to my favorite holiday, the 4th of July!  We went to a parade where we were rained on followed by the thick humidity that made us sweat like pigs.  So naturally it was the perfect way to spend the 4th : ) 

My Beachbody business boomed this month.  I more than doubled the coaches I had underneath me, had 35 Success Club points, and rank advanced to Diamond.  I realize this doesn't mean much to most people reading this, but just know I am dumbfounded, grateful, humbled and thrilled by such an exciting month for me in my business.  I am so looking forward to what my Beachbody future holds for me!  

Sienna Spotlight: 

I had a red starburst and she had picked an orange one.  Of course then she decided she wanted the red one (my favorite), wrenched it out of my hand, gave me the orange one and then said, "See, we are sharing!"

Price's nose started bleeding (we still don't know why), and Sienna started crying and sobbed, "But he's my favorite boy!"  Ahhh...the truth comes out! : )

I was singing "Let It Go" in the car and I could see her just staring blankly at me from her carseat.  Finally she says, "You don't sing good."

As I was getting her ready for bed, I pulled out a pair of Christmas pajamas that she had pooped in a few month prior.  She told me she couldn't sleep in those because she had pooped in them.  But I reassured that it was okay because I washed them.  After looking at me very SKEPTICALLY, she said smartly, "Let me smell them."  

Sienna told me her stomach hurt, so I asked her if she needed to go potty.  She said no.  Five minutes later, she changed her mind, and went.  As she was finishing up, I asked her if her tummy felt better.  She said, "No, I still miss my Daddy."

I was trying to convince Sienna to wear this particular shirt.  I bribed her, begged her, and finally wore her down.  She looked at me and absolutely exasperated said, "ALRIGHT!"  She actually stunned Matt and I in to silence because she literally sounded 16 years old.  

I looked underneath the couch to get a plastic ball for the boys, and found all of our spanking sticks underneath!  Someone's been trying to hide them! : ) 

Double Trouble: 

Both boys are crawling and pulling up now!  Maddox crawled about two weeks earlier than Price, but both started pulling up at the same time.  

I LOVE the sound of Maddox's little hands and knees scurrying across the floor, especially when I can hear him pick up the pace because he's excited about something (usually me)!

Maddox gets very excited to see me and will crawl right up to me and try to climb up my leg.

Maddox loves the dishwasher.  He hears me open that thing from across the room, and here he comes!  What's funny is that it reminded me that Sienna used to LOVE the dishwasher too!  

Price loves doors.  He will sit at the door and swing it back and forth. 

I love the way Price talks.  It's these very manly sighs and grunts.  We have whole conversations that way.  

Maddox follows Sienna and I around like a puppy. 















Thursday, July 3, 2014

June 2014

With the risk of being a Negative Nancy, I admit that I was worried about June.  Matt will have officially been retired for a over a month, the newness of him being home all the time might wear off, and he might realize what a colossal mistake it was to retire.  June scared me.  

But here we are in July and things are still going really great!  Don't get me wrong...we are NOT on Cloud 9 all the time.  We are not the perfect picture of marital bliss.  We do not always turn tantrums in to teaching moments.  Sometimes tantrums are just tantrums and we get frustrated and yell.  Sometimes Matt and I are tired of each other (shocking, I know)!  

But overall, after such a MONUMENTAL life transition, we are more at peace and happier than I ever thought we would be.  Matt feels like he is doing exactly what he is supposed to be doing.  So what IS he doing exactly?  The question is...what ISN'T he doing?!  He is still involved in the rent-to-own car business he started over a year ago (EZ Auto Rent-To-Buy), he is involved in some real estate investments, he became a partner in franchising a fast-casual pizza restaurant called Pie 5, and he has a few other options on the table, as well.  The wheels of his mind are always grinding and truthfully, it can wear me out.  But I know how blessed I am to have married such a creative, smart, and hard-working man.

Beachbody has been so fun and just busy enough to keep me on my toes, and make sure I don't have one second of free time! : )  Matt and I were able to get away for three days to Las Vegas, for the Beachbody Summit and then to Phoenix for two days to see some close friends, the Beltramos and Graffaninos.  It was really nice to get away, but it was a LOT of work!  Arranging care for the kids, packing their stuff, stocking the refrigerator, etc.  But of course, my parents were extremely helpful and took on all three kids for the majority of our time away.  I don't know how people with kids live away from their families.  I couldn't have done this without my family and Matt's mom.  

Sienna Spotlight: 

Sienna has been sleeping in a twin bed without a bed rail for quite a few months now.  Well she did fall out of bed at my parent's house just a few weeks ago.  She came out crying, and told my dad that, "The bed tipped over!".  He then told her she could sleep in his bed, but she was afraid THAT bed would tip over also!  I love the way their little minds work.  It never ceases to amaze me.

After witnessing Matt go #2 on the potty, she boldly told him, "You had a snake in your butt!"  To me, this is the FUNNIEST thing she has ever said.  

Matt will often act like a "monster" and chase Sienna around the house.  One night they had been playing this, but Matt was resting on the couch and I was laying down on the floor.  I got up to go to the bathroom, and she said, "Make sure monster don't get you.  He's on the couch."

After returning home from my Las Vegas trip, Sienna gave me a big hug and said, "You're my best friend."  Sweet girl made my day.  

Matt makes her oatmeal nearly everyday, so one morning she tells me, "Daddy make my oatmeal, Mommy.  Not you.  Daddy my best friend."  She made his day : )

She still loves Frozen, The Lorax, Tangled, and Hillsong's Crazy Noise.  She can do a small puzzle by herself, struts around in high heels like it ain't no thing, and still wants to change clothes three times/day.

Double Trouble:

Maddox has been on hands and knees just rocking away, but not budging!  He has tried to move his knees, but then he collapses on his face because he hasn't figure out that he has to move his arms too.  

Price still grunts.  His voice and cries are so deep.  I love hearing him.

They are both finally eating solids without putting up a fuss and spitting most of it out. 

Price has STRONG legs.  I am actually afraid he is going to break his jumperoo.  He also can stand if I help him hold on to something.  Maddox doesn't seem to know what do with his legs when I put him in the standing position.  









Papa LaPorta!










Wednesday, June 4, 2014

Mother, May I?

So the title of this blog means nothing, except it has the word "May" and "Mother" in it, so I found it appropriate.  
The biggest news of the month is that Matt officially retired.  He just came to a point where he felt delaying the decision was dragging things out unnecessarily.  He could not compete at the level he wanted to on his hip, so he came home.  And outside of a 24 hour period (one in which I went to a Rays vs Indians game…terrible decision), it has been glorious.  Seriously, glorious.  Our family is back together, and I honestly feel like we are living a dream.  Better than being a baseball all-star, is a dad who is there in the morning when the kids wake up, and home by 5:00 for three hours of (sometimes crazy and stressful, sometimes perfectly beautiful) family time.  Sienna is more in love with Matt than ever, he gets to see his boys change and grow everyday, and I get to wake up next to him every morning.  Like I said, we are living a dream life.  
I am not trying to be unrealistic or corny or anything like that.  IF I let myself go there, baseball (or lack thereof) can conjure up all kinds of negative emotions.  But in light of what we HAVE, it's just not a big deal anymore.  

On another note entirely, do you ever have those days where every hour you apologize to your kids, and think to yourself, "I'm starting fresh!", yet there you are again, apologizing fifteen minutes later for once again "freaking out" over something that didn't quite deserve that level of "freak out"?  That was me…TODAY.  It's a Wednesday and by Wednesday, I.need.a.break.  I just do.  I wish I didn't, but I do.  By Wednesday, I have been in my house for almost two days straight, and simply put, I just don't have the grace and patience I need for my two year old daughter and 7 month twin boys.  
But I recently have been reading a book called, "Desperate: Hope for the Mom Who Needs to Breathe", by Sarah Mae & Sally Clarkson.  It is THE MOST affirming book for this stage of my life.  And it inspire me to write a list of my Mom Confessions- the things I am not so proud of, in hopes that it will help someone else realize that they are not a bad mom just because they are not a perfect mom.  So here goes:


My Mom Confessions
  • Sienna watches WAY more TV than I would like her to.  I keep telling myself this is just a phase and I have twins, and I will pull set more boundaries eventually.
  • I am afraid I don't give the boys enough attention (this may or may not be true).
  • I only recently cut hotdogs out of Sienna's diet (the confession part is that I felt the NEED to based on how many she was eating).
  • I am on my phone ENTIRELY TOO MUCH.  I feel like my kids wouldn't recognize me without it.  I have often thought about having some kind of rule in place like putting my phone in a drawer for this specified period of time, but have yet to take action.  
  • I always have a countdown going for nap time and bed time.
  • My boys nap beautifully, but that of course means Sienna is stuck at home all day with me because the boys need their naps!
  • Sienna does not eat enough vegetables.  
So here's a small sample.  Don't worry…there are more.  But I suppose I wasn't ready to get THAT vulnerable yet.  Geez Louise.  
Now comes the part where I tell you about my children and how in love with them I am.  Because I am despite my mom confessions.  

Sienna Spotlight: 
  • When I returned home one evening, she told her babysitter to "Put your shoes on.  You have to go."
  • Matt can be very antagonistic, but in this case, I think he was just nicely playing with Sienna when out of the blue she says, "I'm going to pee on you."
  • She has two twin monkeys and told me they were a girl and a boy and that the girl was named Cinderella.  When I asked her what the boy was named, she said, "Cinderella Boy".
  • For a few days after Matt returned from Mexico, Sienna wasn't convinced he was staying. One morning she triumphantly came and told me that Daddy was here.  And I said "Did you think he was leaving again?"  And she said, "Yes.  I was sad."
  • My brother asked Sienna what made her happy and she quickly responded, "Jesus."
  • The other day before she left for school, I made her promise she would come home.  Over 8 hours later, she came through the door, rushed in to my arms, and said, "I told you I would come back!"
Sienna makes us laugh out loud every single day.  She is incredibly independent and bossy and I love her for it.  She already thinks she knows everything and she's not even 3.  I can't imagine what she will be like at 13.  Despite these strong leadership qualities, she is so sweet.  Often, without reason, she will come give me a hug and say, "I love you Mommy."  She LOVES her baby dolls, and mothers them, always comforting them, and whispering sweet things in to their ears.  She is the perfect combination of sugar and spice.

Double Trouble: 
  • Both Price and Maddox sit up entire on their own, and seem very ready to crawl.  It's unbelievable to watch them figure out what their bodies do and see them get frustrated, but keep trying.  I forgot how amazing it is to literally watch them learn moment by moment.
  • Price has an excellent reach.  He will lunge for and pick up anything in his path.  But my favorite thing is when he reaches that chubby hand out to grab my face.  Heart-melting.
  • Maddox is more verbal and babbles and his new thing is screeching like a bird.  
  • Price mostly just grunts.
  • Maddox is still the more expressive of the two.  He is just SO HAPPY and ENTHUSIASTIC!  I love that about him.  
  • They are loving bouncing and jumping in their jumperoo and the bouncy thing you can hang from your doorway.  









    Passport Photos!


Saturday, May 3, 2014

April

Highlights:
  • Going to Disney with Sienna on the day before Matt had to leave for Mexico.  She had a love/hate relationship with the characters.  She loved them from afar, but up close it took her a while to warm up!
  • We sold our beach house with a May closing date!
  • The kids, my mom and I spent a week out at the beach before we didn't have the house anymore!  It was a wonderful way to relax and it made it easier being away from Matt.
  • Sienna and I went to Mexico to see Matt!  The city of Campeche was MUCH NICER than I ever imagined.  It was wonderful to have such quality time with just Matt, Sienna, and I, though I did miss my little boys.
  • I turned 30 on April 17!
  • Matt and I spent a great day together before he left where he gave me the most beautiful ring.
  • I was home at Easter for the first time in five years.
Lowlights:
  • I turned 30 on April 17.
  • We miss Matt.  Sienna misses her Daddy.  She cries and says she wants Daddy to come back.  Or when she climbs in to my bed in the morning, she says, "Daddy come home after his baseball game?"  Heartbreaking!
  • Though Matt is playing extremely well down in Mexico, his hip continues to be an issue.  Unless God heals his hip significantly, Matt is not sure how much longer he will last.  It's unreal that it seems he is on the verge of retiring from baseball.  It truly pains me to even type that.  I know, I know…God has something better for us.  The mature Christian adult-me knows that.  But the petulant child-me wants to scream, "It's not fair!"  "Why couldn't You have just healed his hip?!"  "Why didn't we get another opportunity or a better opportunity on a different team?!"  "This isn't how it was supposed to happen!"  "He doesn't deserve this!"  Okay…I think I got it all out…at least for now.  
Sienna Spotlight:
The girl loves shoes.  She puts shoes on before she comes out of her room in the morning (6:45am).  She puts on shoes after she wakes up from her naps and comes out of her room.  She switches shoes 20 times a day.  I usually have at least five pairs of her shoes scattered about my house.
She can fully dress herself.  Now sometimes a shirt is inside out or something like that, but USUALLY her shirt and pants are on the right way (tag in back)!  She never ceases to amaze me. 
She also can almost buckle her carseat by herself.  This is a huge plus and makes me feel like I don't need to get a minivan!  Go Sienna go!
One day I was scolding her while she was in her high chair, so I was looking down at her.  Well she narrowed those blue eyes at me and then started raising her eyebrows up and down.  Needless to say, the scolding was over because I couldn't stop laughing.  And I tried really hard to keep my "mean face" on, but to no avail.  

Double Trouble:
The boys are six months old!  I can't believe it, but I am loving every second.  THIS is the age where I just can't get enough of them.  Both boys are incredibly generous with their smiles and love attention.  They are both sitting up, but Maddox is a little better at it.  They are both out of their rock n' plays and in to separate cribs!  Price can hold his own bottle, which comes in very handy (no pun intended).  Price will gnaw on anything within his little chubby arms' reach.  And I think Maddox could look at people all day.  He doesn't' want to miss a thing.  











Nonna, Sienna, and Price at the beach!






30th Birthday Celebration with Wonderful Friends!


Easter Twins!





Sienna and our friend, Blake!

My big boy, Price, holding his own bottle!